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      Being born at September 22, 1977, surrounded by mama, papa, grandparents, and aunts, at that moment, I was raised by a very warm and happy extended family. I recognize that I would highly love to be a "girl." I hadn't been at all thinking I'm a "boy." Although my parents truly disagreed with my behavior, I realized that I hadn't done anything bad to other people. I strongly feel that I have such a tender and sensitive emotion and sensation deep inside of my interior, also exterior personality.

      At the age of 10, since catching up with a great number of beauty contests on television, furthermore, learning Porntip "Bui" Nakhirunkanok managed to be crowned as Miss Universe 1988, I began thinking about being a complete woman. I'd love to be beautiful and attractive as Porntip is. I started talking and consulting with my friends who had the same interest as minefor many times. Many told me that hormones are firstly and necessarily needed and recommended. I spent fairly long time to study and deal with feminine hormones, and that's the first step of my sweet dream. Sure, I started taking hormones at the age of 13 with the first remedy, "contraceptive tablets," designed by Thaliand's Ministry of Health, which cost quite inexpensive. Until at 16, I began my new beauty formula by taking "Diane-35," the well-known and popular contraceptive among Thai "lady-boys" who prepare themselves to become a complete woman.

      At the age of 17, I managed to pass the entrance examination and to enter English Department, Faculty of Humanities, Chiang Mai University. Since then, I learned more about how most become a complete woman by me senior friends. In the year 1999, a friend of mine who attended Mass Communications major underwent the "sex reassignment surgery (SRS)." This topic became very well-known since she was the first case who took the SRS while attending the university level. That's compared to the enchantment for me and encouraged me also to deal with the SRS. I had talked to my mother about my desire. At first, it seemed to me that she was uninterested in what I had told her. However, when the time passed by, about 3 years later, incredibly, she thought over on the topic and decided to let me handle with the SRS. I couldn't tell anyone about my feeling at that moment. I didn't think the SRS would be such a simply matter for me, but it eventually was. I'm so thankful that my mother understood my deep feeling.

      Then, in April 2002, at the age of 24, since being told from a great mumber of friends who joined the Miss Tiffany's Universe Pageant in Pattaya, I had a chance to get to know the reputation of Dr. Kamol Pansritum, a surgeon who I could completely trust in. I therefore made the most crucial decision of my life. From Chiang Mai, truly by alone, I took a trip down to Dr.kamol to undergo the SRS with him in April 6. At first, I confess that I was quite afraid of what was going to happen to my stay in the hospital since that was the first time in my life I did. Nonetheless, I also had a chance to get to know the wife of Dr. Kamol, "Mrs. Siriphen Phansrithum," or "Phee Orm" whose hospitality and kindness extremely captured my heart. Her genuine behavioral qualifications made me comfortable and ease my stress. Without any worrit, I therefore felt courage to go ahead to undergo the SRS.

      Although I sometimes felt lonesome during April 7-12, the period of time I was on the bed in the hospital, the atmosphere of the suite room, including the turn-taking visit of nurses and "Phee Orm" to have some talks to me everyday fortunately made me felt very warm and comfortable. They encouraged me to smile, laugh, and talk to them. Furthermore, Dr. Kamol came to check up the result and my body at 2 pm. everyday. Until the last day of my stay in the hospital, also the first day of mine to appreciate the new life in the world, I could come out from the hospital with the completely happy smiles. The first thing coming up to my mind at that moment is that I thought of my parents. I knew that they would be very happy to learn that I was so contented with the new life. After coming out from the hospital, I was brought to Dr. Kamol's clinic to be taught about how to take care of the SRS result, and how to keep it clean and safe. Until April 14, I came up back home in Chiang Mai with hthe hapy life and pride to become a complete woman.

      I'd like to thank Dr. Kamol Pansritum, Phee Orm, and colleague who made my dream come true. I truly experienced the tender, comfortable, and gorgeous hospitality during the surgery and recovery period. I strongly believe that this will be remaining with me throughout all the rest of my life.




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